Its Christmas right?

Ah! Christmas and hidden I’m my room avoiding the family till lunch, thinking about what I want for Christmas, and I think I won’t get-

-My Mum’s side of the family over for Christmas not my Fathers.

-Today to be over.

-A Kiss

-Boyfriend

-Cash

-A Plane

-A Hippopotamus

-A Green Card

-To be held

-A Panda

-A new TV

-My own house

-A Father who isn’t a bigot

-A job I love

-New Mac book Pro

-Some new Air Force One’s                                 

-Understanding

-My own robot                                             

-To be loved

I feel like I should write peace, but between it and a plane, what can i say its christmas i can be selfish :-P

I don’t know when Christmas started to feel so blah. I do have memories of looking forward to it not being able to sleep, granted was properly 8, but still I miss the simpler times.

It seems of late more and more I am seeing peoples view on my lifestyle more and more. I guess that is the only advantage kind of, of being in the closet. I see the true views on the subject from some of my friends.

Last night I was over for dinner at a good friends house I have grown up with through the church. We had a great dinner, then unfortunately his wife wanted to watch Carols by Candlelight. I always enjoy seeing Christmas Carols being butchered by High 5 and the presenters painful banter, always completes a magical Christmas Eve. Well one part through A guy was singing and they mentioned it would be better sang by Anthony Caleia (Guy who one Australian Idol once I think) Oddly enough I read too much rubbish and this guy and Anthony Caleia are actually a couple. Shortly in Anthony Caleia comes out and they sing as a duet.

I mention that they are actually partners. Well any thought I had of coming out to my friend, as I know he would be helpful and especially help me through the church side of things, went out the window. His wife went from enjoying he song to sitting there in utter disgust. She kept harping on about how wrong it was and they better not kiss, or hug! I just couldn’t believe the sheer disgust she had for the fact, that if I hadn’t mentioned it she would have continued loving the Duet. But the fact that they love each other could ruin an evening.  Oh for someone who is so in love with Christmas she was just oozing that Christmas Spirt!

How does Someone else’s love hurt or ruin anything for anyone else?

I hope one day her mind changes, and maybe if it were someone she knew in that situation, someone she cared for, a friend, her feelings would change to happiness that they were in love, and cared for each other. I hope one day to see this from her.  And doesn’t everyone deserve the chance to love and be love no matter whom it is between?

I hope everyone has a great Christmas and Happy and safe New Year. Surround yourself with family and those that love you. Be yourself and I hope all everyone is looking for comes for you.

 

Merry Christmas.